memory and what i thought just now

last couple of days.... my mind was thingking of something.... is anyone out there really cares bout me?? haha... i know, mmg ada... but... i dont think it was the sincerely comes from their heart... a person that always be close to us when we happy... but hardly found some1 who was there for us when sadness and sorrow comes.... wtf is goin on.... sacrifice for somethin that was not worth for it.... yet laughter and memory of how wonderful my live filled up my days.. but why ddi this feelin comes... everytime... when does it ends.. sometimes im wondering.. when im die already.. how many person will be there at my dead ceremony and cry sincerely... how many that really feel my lost after that.... every nite i thingking... are we living by pretending to care about each other..
or are we did that just because we want to make her/his life more happier... what for friends created for us.. gf/bf, family...... if we live in pretending to make some1 happy... if i was reborn in this world and would have a chance to choose to live as we wish... im wish i born to be lonely,coldhearted, doesn't know what love is so im not hurting any1 else and im not hurting myself... love is pain when u toying with it... love is heaven we u choose wisely... lastly love is drug when u over doin it.....

hatred leads to disaster... love lead to unpredictable things.....
so lets try it both... hahahaha.............

3.20 a.m
25 dec (christmas) 2010
lacation : Kuala Terengganu (Hotel Seri Indah)
Themes : Sadness and Sorrow(mcm lagu naruto)wkakaka

new days new hope!!!

yo.... long time didn't update ma blog....
huhu...
last day... i'd check my result for ma last sem... its great bcoz i didn't hav to repeat again any subject... hahaha.....
it's a new hope for me... strive for succes babes!!!

Things runnin through ma mind?

bila blajar mau sgt cuti.. dpt cuti 1 bulan lbh jak... ckp kejap kunu.... tp bila start cuti baru semggu busan sdh... rasa mo jak cuti tu cepat berlalu...

ntahhh laaa... huhuhu..
(online at imax net,bndar kim fung, mile 4, SANDAKAN SABAH)


SANDAKAN MARI!!

huhu..guess what..... right now i at LCCT airport... waiting for boarding time.,.... huhu..... cant wait to see my beloved home town!!! huhu..... miss evrything in Sandakan...!!!! huhu......

Another day to go!!!

Today i woke up at 8.15 a.m in the morning.... when i open my eyes.... i only can think about.... YOU GOIN HOME TOMORROW ADE!!!!!... haha.... then i took my shower,,...
then i attended my class this morning.... after the class finished at 1 o'clock.... i quickly went back home and pack my stuff.... huhu.. cant wait to see Sandakan.... the time passing by so fast.... i didn't realize Hari Raya is around the corner already....... thnk god i still live in this world.... syukur alhamdulillah..........

Is it me who choose to be this way or this is my faith

it's been awhile i'm not posting anything new since... i don't know....
emmm... wat happen to me??!!! lonely.... but yup... i admit it... i am not really the best person for her... huhu... she lied she lied... oooo...... i love the way you lie..... yeahhhh... !@#$%^Y&UIO
fux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 April 2010

god help me .... give me strength to face all this... hihi....
missing u,, missing her... missing them... miss all..... bla bla bla...
everyday i wake up.... 1st thing come cross to my mine is "PROJECT"????
what the F**#!!!??? hahaha.....

Tension??

juz finish registering my course for the next sem....adehh..... next week kena submit 3 projek....... studio??? hate to hear this word.... haha... no la.... tonite im gonna do the layout of studio project.... after that gonna do my plant materials project... it is not easy to be done.... huhuhu..... have to search for the detail of each plant.... huhu.... my lecturers want 10 species of trees,10 species of plamae, 5 species of shrubs, and 5 species of climbers and groundcovers.... huhu..... can wait the day im going back sandakan... miss my bed so much... hahaha... my room.... bla bla bla.... sandakan sandakan sandakan.... wait for me... miss my mummy n daddy....my lil sis... my sweety, my sunshine... my frens n especially my SKATEBOARD!! hahaha..... miss evrything.... growing up is not fun at all.... hahaha.... hate it but have to accept it... weird kan?? byk org mo jd dewasa cepat... but for me... bez lae jadi budak2.... got nothin to worry about klu time budak2..... main jak tau... hahahaha.........

New Year 2010!




















i will keep my promise... emm...
hihi... hepi new year 2010!!!
kelambatan sdh bah aku ni.. hahaha

Im sorry

emmm sorry 4 everything.... im really really soriiee

uhuuuu